so it's been a while, eh?
i feel like that's how i always start my xanga entries lol.
i don't know if anyone still xangas, but why not fill in some gaps.

back in illy philly. here studying until thanksgiving.
then i start my first round of rotations!! i'm excited, get to live with a certain bff- spend some quality time!
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GAwbnnsMx-0
procrastinated studying stroke yesterday to do one of my fave michelle branche songs. haha
but seriously- saying goodbye is really hard. especially when it's been a long time coming.
before this gets sappy, let's change the subject...

can someone please teach me guitar? i've hit an amateur-guitarring wall.
the wall is basically impenetrable toute-seule.
HELP!

whoa. DOUBLE WHOA.
i have not xanga'ed in quite some time.
i just read my last entry and it was BEFORE i went to kona.. how crazy is that? little did i know what i was in for.
i'm in philly now. new city. ..  big city for sure.
procrastinating on studying for my first anatomy exam.
it's pretty crazy eh? how fast a year can go by i mean.
i'm looking out my window at chinatown and still catch myself thinking.. ' when did i get here?'
and then i have to remember.. when God is moving.. all we can do is follow as closely as we can. bc it is by no skill of mine that i should be in grad school right now.
i'm having a hard time.. school is hard. haha, i know right? it's just i'm not used to having to juggle between social life that has yet to be born (which requires more nurturing i guess) and a very VERY demanding school load. the social life always was first in undergrad. and it worked out fine. i don't think that will be the case here.

so i dunno who all xangas still so i guess more than anything i'm writing this for myself. just to clear my head.
i went to GCC yesterday as i have been for the past few weeks. i really like it.. in terms of worship and the pastor is quite funny.. altho a little loud at times.. for those of us who always seem to end up right in front of the loudspeaker.. but i don't feel at home there yet. i find myself really, and i mean REALLY! missing kona. the fellowship there. the friends.. the life long brothers and sisters i met with there. i have no accountability here yet. i have to say though, i am very blessed .. not that you could guess by all this complaining. my family is always there for me, and yonns/ cass are the best bests a girl could ask for. i still keep in touch regularly with a handful of my dts friends.. a couple in particular.. which means sooooooooo much to me. but most importantly i have a relationship that is growing daily with a Savior who is relentlessly pursuing all of my heart. i think that may be my problem.. complacency with my current situation. i don't feel this urgency or need to branch out and make friends when i have all this academic stuff pulling me in every direction.

dude. i need help.
please pray for me. i want more than a routine. i don't want to live off day old bread.. ever. even if yesterdays bread tastes really good, He doesn't want us to settle for yesterday's revelation.. there's more. there's always more. i want to CEASE THE DAY. puahaha, how october sky of me.

anywho. distractions come in many packages.. i like them when they look like maple leaves.